Thursday, December 9, 2010

Fall Finals and An Undefined Longing

As fall term comes to a close, there is a definite buzz in the air. Students and teachers alike are exhausted yet excited for the freedom of winter break. It’s easy to get distracted at this time of the year and therefore forget that we are meeting with our students for the final time. Much energy was put into creating a classroom community for each course, and there is sadness for me when we disband. I may never see some of these students again even though I will remember them and think of them often. I wonder if professors have figured out a good way to keep in touch with students over the years. If you have ideas, please post a comment. I’m just dying for someone to post a comment!
When each course ends I let my students know that I will continue to be a resource for them as they begin teaching, but they rarely seize the opportunity. I am lucky to be friends with a few former students who are doing great things in the community, but I still think about the others. Where are they? Are they happy with teaching? Are their families well? ARE YOU OUT THERE?
The other day I passed a student on the street. We stopped to chat, but there was awkwardness to the conversation. I realized that teachers are limited in their ability to truly know their students. We can’t really socialize with our students during the term, but when the term is over the relationship is usually over too. It’s a strange conundrum that I haven’t quite figured out yet. Perhaps I need to be satisfied with the teacher-student relationships and accept that it naturally dissipate as time moves on. But still, I wonder if it could be different…
There is no cheerleading in this message, just a longing that is still undefined. I just can’t help feeling a little bit down as I say good-bye to my students. My holiday wish this year is that all of my students and colleagues feel loved, safe, and fulfilled now and always. Much love to you all!